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#4

[specialist_snowflake]

I apologize. That was not my intention.

I should formally state that I harbor no anger nor ill will toward you. I am merely disappointed in myself and the degradation of my self-discipline.

[badluckblues]

what does that even mean

did you not wanna do it?

[specialist_snowflake]

I did not. The boundaries I set were meant to specifically prevent such a situation. However, the physical alterations of the Iris moon phase pushed me past the point where I could not fathom any other alternative. At the time, there was nothing I wanted more than to proceed as we had.

I'm not certain if my resolve is too weak, or if I'm simply too idealistic. I have not yet been able to come to terms with the matter.

[badluckblues]

oh.


yeah, you definitely should be angry at me.

[specialist_snowflake]

As I said, I am only angry with myself. Under every other circumstance, your self-restraint was exceptional, and admirable. And under previous moon cycles, I have retained enough mental capacity to decline in sexual situations.

This time, I no longer wanted to hold back. I granted you permission in every feasible way.

[badluckblues]

and now you regret it, because i ignored your boundaries and pushed you into something you weren't ready for. which is a shitty fucking thing to do.

look, i'm sorry. you don't have to avoid me. i'll leave you alone

[specialist_snowflake]

That isn't what I want. I don't think it's what you want either. I just need time to reassess my values. Were they impractical? Is it what I still want to pursue? At the moment I don't know.

As my own wants are still undecided, perhaps I should ask what it is that you want, if you are not adverse to telling me.

[badluckblues]

i don't know

whatever you're still comfortable with.

i just don't want to be your regret

[specialist_snowflake]

You are not. You have been a true friend to me in ways I cannot fully express. That is why I must tread carefully as I would not wish to hurt you, or destroy the relationship we've built by being too demanding.

If I have failed in any of these aspects, then I apologize deeply.

[badluckblues]

you're fine. don't worry about that.

but as your friend, i'm gonna have to kick the shit out of myself for taking advantage of you like that

[specialist_snowflake]

I doubt those were your initial intentions. We were simply swept up in the moment.

It was a little romantic if I must be honest.

[badluckblues]

yeah there was some sweeping up i guess, but c'mon winter. i've been wanting to sleep with you for years

put this on me where it belongs and stop being so hard on yourself.

[specialist_snowflake]

No.

Explain 'years.' When did this begin?

[badluckblues]

wow the first time i came onto you must've been pretty bad if you never got my meaning

[specialist_snowflake]

You did seem sarcastically antagonistic.

Also you were drunk.

[badluckblues]

i'm always drunk.

anyway, stick to pick-up lines. noted.

[specialist_snowflake]

I think we're well beyond the need for those, unless you're referring to future endeavors with other individuals.

[badluckblues]

never too late for a good line

[specialist_snowflake]

If you wish. They might prove amusing if nothing else.

Are you departing for the oasis?

[badluckblues]

nah i got some things to take care of here, can't be bothering with any more dumb robots in my life

[specialist_snowflake]

Understood.

I will miss you.

[badluckblues]

wow

are you sure about that

[specialist_snowflake]

I suppose it isn't important. Be well.

[badluckblues]

heh. stay safe out there, ice queen

[specialist_snowflake]

If you're that worried, you may as well see me off properly.